I Really Did Love Your Kisses....

I wish you were still here so badly Lua Puppy. I cry for you every night. Especially lately. I need to feel your cute puppy kisses. I know I yelled and screamed every time you gave them to me, but I really did love them. And I miss them so much it kills me. I wish I would have thanked you every time you gave them to me, instead of yell. I'm so sorry Lua Puppy. I love you so much.

I'm making a shelf for you. It's taken me a while to figure out exactly what I'm doing- but that's only because I want it perfect for you. I have a few more things to get for it, then I just have to build it and decorate it. I hope you'll like it.

I miss you consoling me Lua. I know that I'm selfish, and I shouldn't be thinking about how badly I need you right now. I should be grateful you are in Heaven and no longer hurting. Which I am. More than you'll ever know. I want you to never feel any pain again- and you won't now. But I just miss you being there for me when no one else is. I miss having you lay next to me in my bed. I miss your puppy kisses. I miss being able to play with you and wrestle with you. I miss how excited you were when I'd come home from work. I miss you playing with your food. I miss you turning in circles when I'd get your leash to go outside. I miss you following me around. I miss you looking at me with your big eyes. I miss.... you. So much.

And I want you to know that even though Second Mom and I aren't doing so well, we'll always be your moms. And we'll always love you more than you could ever know. You'll be in our hearts no matter where we go and how far apart we are from each other. So don't worry.

I don't know when I'll stop crying for you Lua Puppy. I hope it's Ok if it's never.

I love you.